On Time: Delusional Thinking
I’m so delusional about time. I always think I can squeeze in more than is humanly possible in any day. I have a long list of things I want to read each day on top of all my To Do’s. I never get to all of them.
In ten minutes, I have to get ready to leave for Mass. I read one of Sarah Kay’s poems while my eggs cook. She’s so delicious, I allow myself only one poem a day. I cheated today and read two.
My strawberries and cream, eggs and toast wait on the table. My coffee is already half gone.
It takes me half an hour to get ready before I can walk out the door. That’s in forty minutes. So I have ten minutes for breakfast. It’s all about math if I want to get there on time, which is at least five minutes early I’m told, especially by military families. Too bad my math word problems in grade school never had an example like this. Much more practical than counting apples and oranges.
I grab two books as I sit down. Plus my Bible study workbook. This is the delusional part. I know I don’t have time for three books. In ten minutes? I can see you shaking your heard right along with me. I have no explanation. By bringing it to light, I’m hoping to dry out this moldy, delusional thinking.
Richard Rohr’s awesome book, The Divine Dance*, has been calling to me for two weeks now. I delude myself into thinking I can read a tiny bit of it now. I like the thought of the possibility and carry it from room to room each day. Maybe I have time to read the next women’s story in Women of the Bible: The Life and Times of Every Woman in the Bible. That’s book two sitting here joining me for breakfast.
Eight minutes. I eat while scanning the first section of the paper. Not true. That’s what I want to do. Instead, I write this which is not on the agenda of two-books-and-one-Bible-study-workbook-breakfast.
Five minutes. Gonna have to wait til lunch to read about the next woman in the Bible. I didn’t count on writing. My answers are good enough in the Bible study workbook. Dishes are in the sink. I’m off!
*Sister Pascaline Coff recently told me The Divine Dance is the best book she has ever read. She’s a million years old and an international figure in the world of interreligious dialogue, and an author herself. Read more about her in my book. Here’s a fuller biography on her. If you like stories of unknown women in Catholic history, click here for Sister Mary Luke Tobin and what she did among the world’s cardinals.